The past few weeks have been a real battle for me. You know, social media really gives an inaccurate depiction of what life looks like. We focus just on the beauty of how our feed looks, and not on the real, nitty gritty stuff that’s going on. This past week the reality of my miscarriage hit me, along side the passing of my grandmother, who’s funeral service is today. And then what I like to call the “aftermath” of the miscarriage started (which I’ll explain later, because I feel it’s something people need to hear). This past MONTH has been really hard for me.
Emotions are real and raw, and they aren’t always happy. We all have our ups and downs, and social media doesn’t always portray the downs. No one is perfect. We all have emotions, and you never know what someone might be battling inside. Which is why it’s so important to throw kindness around like confetti (as I once saw on Pinterest), because your kindness can be just what that person needs. I had a patient last week scream in my face and call me some serious profanities (granted, he had his own issues), but given the week I had, I just lost it. Normally I would’ve handled it better, but it just made me get in my car and cry.
I have my moments where I just suck. I’m not always an amazing friend. I’m not always an amazing wife. There are many moments I feel like a failure as mother. There are moments I feel like a failure as a woman (see: two miscarriages). I don’t always love my job, my house isn’t always clean, I have days where Sesame Street is on a little too much, days I don’t eat that well, days I just FAIL to do everything I set out to accomplish and nothing gets marked off my to-do list. And sometimes these days string together and last for weeks. We all have these funks, right? When bedtime rituals involve wine and chocolate. And that’s just what I’m in right now because I’m having a really emotional few weeks!
Sometimes we just need to admit that. I think, especially as women, we set really high expectations for ourselves, especially with social media. And that’s why we just need to learn to be nice to each other, and be kind, caring, compassionate people…because life can be really tough sometimes and we don’t need the attitude from someone else making us feel worse when we’re having a bad day!
I say all of this because….no one is perfect. We are perfectly imperfect. And we need to wrap our minds around that concept, accept it, and live it. And start admitting that we have all have our flaws, our bad days, our emotional moments, and THAT’S OKAY. That’s what makes us all individually beautiful.
What do you think?
(I do think this dress is “perfect” though, so you need to hop over to Love Threads and check it out! They have an amazing, and well-priced selection of clothing!)